Sedihnya...
Alkisahnya,
My visa will end this 30 Aug 2012. Since BB & Adel's visa pun dependent under my visa, so decided not to renew theirs as BB will be commencing his PhD study soon. So nak buat visa dependet (Adel) under BB lah plak for 3 years. Kalau teruskan under my visa, only for a year jek, then kena renew semula which is a waste of money.
Disebabkan kesilapan KPT sebab lupa nak key in nama BB yg dah approve scholarshipnya since June lepas, awal bulan Aug baru dapat tahu yang dia dah pun boleh proceed with his Visa & all. Padahal dah lama kot dah boleh settle. But its already too late to apply for his new visa coz his current visa will end on 30th Aug, so we decided to go back to Malaysia & let him settle his matters with KPT & visas & everything else.
So disebabkan itu lah terpaksa tinggalkan Adel di Malaysia dengan Papa nya sehingga diorg dah dapat visa baru.
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I didn't cry at the airport coz I don't like to make a scene. So I hold back my tears. All through the journey, I tried to keep myself occupied so I wouldn't think & miss them by watching movies nonstop. When the movie is over, I opened my phone & look at their photos & videos. I still didn't cry. I want to, but I still managed to hold back my tears.
When I arrived home, I realized I'm all alone. My house is empty & too quiet. I saw Adel's toys everywhere, then my emotions started to welled up again. I climbed on my bed, called my hubby to inform him that I've arrived safely & to asked him how Adel's doing. Midway through our conversation, I cried nonstop. So there you go, all the feelings that I have been holding back came pouring down like a heavy rain. So hubby told me to rest & have a good sleep first. Which I did. But when I woke up again, I cried again. And again...and again...and again....and until now.
I miss them so much. I actually cried almost every hour. I cant stop missing them every second.
I cried myself to sleep watching his videos & listening to their voices. I have never been apart from Adel & hubby. I thought I can cope with it, but obviously I couldn't.
My visa will end this 30 Aug 2012. Since BB & Adel's visa pun dependent under my visa, so decided not to renew theirs as BB will be commencing his PhD study soon. So nak buat visa dependet (Adel) under BB lah plak for 3 years. Kalau teruskan under my visa, only for a year jek, then kena renew semula which is a waste of money.
Disebabkan kesilapan KPT sebab lupa nak key in nama BB yg dah approve scholarshipnya since June lepas, awal bulan Aug baru dapat tahu yang dia dah pun boleh proceed with his Visa & all. Padahal dah lama kot dah boleh settle. But its already too late to apply for his new visa coz his current visa will end on 30th Aug, so we decided to go back to Malaysia & let him settle his matters with KPT & visas & everything else.
So disebabkan itu lah terpaksa tinggalkan Adel di Malaysia dengan Papa nya sehingga diorg dah dapat visa baru.
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I didn't cry at the airport coz I don't like to make a scene. So I hold back my tears. All through the journey, I tried to keep myself occupied so I wouldn't think & miss them by watching movies nonstop. When the movie is over, I opened my phone & look at their photos & videos. I still didn't cry. I want to, but I still managed to hold back my tears.
When I arrived home, I realized I'm all alone. My house is empty & too quiet. I saw Adel's toys everywhere, then my emotions started to welled up again. I climbed on my bed, called my hubby to inform him that I've arrived safely & to asked him how Adel's doing. Midway through our conversation, I cried nonstop. So there you go, all the feelings that I have been holding back came pouring down like a heavy rain. So hubby told me to rest & have a good sleep first. Which I did. But when I woke up again, I cried again. And again...and again...and again....and until now.
I miss them so much. I actually cried almost every hour. I cant stop missing them every second.
I cried myself to sleep watching his videos & listening to their voices. I have never been apart from Adel & hubby. I thought I can cope with it, but obviously I couldn't.
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| Last few hours before my flight |
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| Look at my puffy eyes, nangis beria punya pasal |
aku bace ni pun aku nangis, i know how it feels to be away from ur baby.. tp x leh lawan ko yang lain2 negara. be strong mommy, hope u guys will be reunited very2 soon!
ReplyDeleteJust like Ain said, we know how it feels to be away from our baby, but your case, wins hands down.. Don't know how u must be feeling.. :'( Be strong.. Allah will help u and ur family insyaAllah..
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