Panicky...

Since this is my 1st pregnancy, it is normal to be a bit panicky over small matters. Like this morning, I tried to roll over and sleep on my right side, but I had a terrible cramping pain on my lower right abdomen. I couldn't even get up and go to the toilet. The pain was so unbearable. I woke BB up, worried that something might happened to the baby. Because I read somewhere if there is cramps together with blood stain, then we should immediately go to the hospital to check whether the baby is ok or not. But I checked and there was no blood stain whatsoever.

To make things worst, last night I dreamed that my teeth was loose. And that I needed to get the teeth out. When I told my husband about it, he was quite shocked coz he said everytime when he dreamed of losing a teeth, it means that someone he knew had passed away. So again, I panicked. Does my dream have anything to do with my baby? Is my baby ok? Does it have something to do with the cramping pain? Plus, my baby is not moving around much like he used to (it was all in my head..panic much!).

Thankfully we had an appointment in the afternoon. After complaining about the pain, the doc checked my BP and the baby's heartbeat and my tummy, and she said not to worry coz everything is fine. And she said the cramping is normal for all pregnant women (which I knew but my cramp have been occuring all morning, that is why I panicked).

Anyways, Alhamdulillah the baby is fine. And as I'm writing this entry, the baby is doing some somersaults inside my uterus.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

Peliharalah anakku selama ia berada di dalam perutku, dan sihatkanlah dia, Engkaulah yang menyembuhkan, tidak ada penyembuhan selain penyembuhan Mu, Penyembuhan yang tidak meninggalkan penyakit. Ya Allah rupakanlah atau bentukkanlah dia yang ada diperut ku dengan rupa yang baik, dan tetapkanlah ke dalam hatinya iman kepada Engkau dan kepada Rasul-Mu.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

Keluarkanlah dia dari perutku dengan mudah dan selamat. Ya Allah jadikanlah dia sihat yang sempurna berakal dan pandai, alim dan beramal. Ya Allah panjangkanlah umurnya sihatkanlah badannya, dan baikkanlah akhlaknya, fasihkanlah lisannya, baguskanlah suaranya untuk membaca Al-Quran dan hadis dengan berkat Nabi Muhammad SAW, dan segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan semesta alam. 

Ameen.